yesterday same like today , today same like tomorrow...

Everyday I was repeat a same action in a small house... Only the different is my breaksfast , lunch, and dinner is not same. I hate the same action i do everyday. If i can change my lifestyle ,although it is meanless , will I feel happy? maybe yes... and maybe no ... i like alone but i hate lonely... i love to talk ... but not with girls... i like to play , but it have time limit.. i was happy , but after few minute... i still feels lonely... maybe U will think I insane already... or mental got a bit problem but i still feel lonely... This lonely is not because of my brain problem ... is because of I cant say the word in my heart to my love... My courage is finnish using when I was give the gift to her... maybe I juz wan to let her know i like her ... but now I was sad because of my courage ... when I saw her, I have many thing to tell her but .... I was not her friend this few word is remind me ,I not her anything include her friend ... maybe for her, I juz like a stranger man who like her... so... U know what i mean now? I hating my brain and my knowledge when I was facing her everyday... Cant even speak a word... to HER... so sad T-T.. U stupid IDIOT... When my courage is set , maybe I cant see her again... YY, Bye ~ forever T~T